Malaysia , a year break

Sigh...I am back to Malaysia. The feeling is really different now. I am back to my hometown and actually trying hard to make myself study. I never thought that it would be that hard to make sure I am hardworking. I realized my town is really peaceful and laid back that no doubt I will be influenced like that. But, they say I might not have the strong determination in me to uphold myself.

Well, well....no matter how hard I try. I am still the same. I am helpless to see myself staring at the front page of 'Cracking the GRE' and pondering about whether I can score d exam in a month's time. Whether or not I will be able to conquer this exam, it's up to my motivation n determination. Gosh..where to get all that motivation?

Last thing about Rochester

Today, I went to try South Indian food in India Palace Restaurant. I heard that we were able to try Masala Dosai. It was really big and it's my favourite food. It's good to know that Rochester has dosai. I had fun knowing Zerene's friend Swarop and his friends from UofR.

After dinner, the group separated as one side wanted to watch in Pittsford while we , thought tat, watched movie in Regal. We ended up going to Movie 10 and watch Forbidden Kingdom...a movie I wanted to watch after watching a trailer on dvd. I couldn't imagine that I could watch this today. I really like movie which has some historical element in it.

Well...after the movie, I came back to the web and search information about the movie. It was the first time for Jackie Chan and Jet Li to co-host in a movie together. It was a hilarious one indeed.

Alright friends, **getting ur attention** don't forget to call me when you watch these movies

The Mummy: The Tomb of Dragon Emperor
The Children of Huangshi

* You should know by now that my favourite actor and actress (the first time I am announcing my favourite movie star) Jackie Chan and Michelle Yeoh. American actor & actress is Sandra Bullock and Robbie Williams.

It seems...

..that my summer here in US is ending.
.. that I have to start saying goodbyes to everyone.
.. that having a farewell gathering after church service is saddening.
.. leaving Rochester for a new adventure sounds exciting.
.. that all the memories pertaining to this area surfacing my mind unnoticingly.
.. that the fun time with housemates is getting more memorable than before.
.. that God's plentiful blessings are around me all this while.
.. that being thankful and gratitude are the attitude I am in now.

Manual Car wash~~

Yesterday, we decided to go clean my car after doing some study in the library. Zerene told me Jinehee goes to a store to vacuum her car. We inserted 1 dollar into a big vacuum machine. We cleaned the car as quickly as possible. If I am not mistaken d vaccum only last for 5 minutes. I had to put in more money in order to finish cleaning everything.

Then we saw someone washing their car. It seems fun to see the guy foaming his car so much...stg like I see when a person wash a dog with so much foam. You see up there, that's how the set up is like for washing a car. I parked my car in a middle of the space, then we inserted 2 dollars and had to use up 8 modes to clean the car in 4 minutes. We werent' able to finish and had to insert more coins to add more minutes. Hahaha...it was fun...n i took pictures of my car so tat I can put out advertisement for car sale. Any1 wants my car? I am gonna miss it.

A wonderfully hot day

The weather today is sunny - which is good- but the temperature is still up to 34 C. It was very hot for me and Zerene to walk around RIT . We were there to finish up some small official work. The feeling of being in school getting mails sent, printing out passport size picture, handing in and getting documents signed are very pleasant when we are being treated so nicely because there weren't many people around especially having no lines to queue for.

Somehow, we noticed that there is some sort of silence this summer when you are alone with one friend, and there is nothing else to do but to thing but to try to find something to do. This is what I called it relaxation...haha. This is the time you take time to notice the things around you slowly and in detail. I realized that there are many things I missed out in summer and some of them I just discovered. I love how I am hanging out with my housemate...like today, we went to the McD to grab a cup of McFlurry and enjoy cooling down from the hot weather. That was our lunch meal after checking out the total calories we were stuffing down into our stomach....haha.

Back at home, I wanted to take nap so much because I slept really late last night watching a very funny movie called Kungfu Panda. It is really a great way to release your stress if you are planning to find something fun for a break. It was the premier day of that movie. Anyway, back to the point, I couldn't sleep in my room because it's too hot .So, I ended up dragging my blanket and little pillow down to the living room and slept on the floor , while my two other housemates are doing something. Then, Zerene (knowing that she would join me too cos of d heavy ice cream) just came and made my sleeping place smaller. Down in the living room, I enjoyed feeling and listening to the breeze coming in through two opened windows. I also could heard the loud hustling leaves freshly matured from the tree trunk. Sometimes, it is funny that I could heard the duck and geese making noises.

This summer is really unsual and special. Spring seems to be more prominent here. I see fluffy seeds (Zerene called them cosmos) flying down just like snow on to the ground. So, the ground looks as if covered with snow but actually like a layer of cotton.

What do you notices or like about summer?

Care Connectioin Pt 2

This morning, my beauty sleep got disturbed because Zerene and I had to go to a person's house to do window cleaning. Her house was on Bailey Road and it wasn' t too long that we found her house. The first thing we saw was an old lady sitting at garage with d door up, waiting for us to come. She is really nice and all but I got the feeling that she wasn't confident in our cleaning.

Anyway, we were asked to cleaned the wide windows in the living room facing the front yard. It was done in a second with three people. Then, we were offered drinks. We were surprised if that's the only job we had to do. So, I asked if she needed us to do other windows. In a hour's time, we cleaned all the windows of the house.

It's really funny how an old lady with family would asked people to help her with the windows. I thought we would be helping unfortunate family or something. The old lady cannot walk well . She explained about how she fell down from window cleaning and broke her pelvic bone. It was 20 years ago. Very very strange ....

Care

This

Time 4 a new story

Hmm...Now that spring has ended (although I felt like it just started) summer is walking into this season. Every new leaves, every new seed represents new beginning and a starting of a story. Similarly, my life is blooming into another new story , branching out in new ways at different directions. I wonder, how it would turn out to be like.

Spring was about ending my life as an undergraduate in RIT, ending my contributions and getting praise from God 'good job, well done!' Spring was also about spending the remaining time to be with friends before we depart. Each of us leaving one by one in a joyful way. Some have new goals to look into, a few stayed to continue pursuing their goals, some left for another kind of different purposes...yet, I didn't want to be d one to leave first. I chose to stay and don't mind to be d last one to leave because I chose to cherish the last moment for remembrance. I want to be at the that moment, to be the person to wish and pray for them a good blessings ahead. I want to remember their backs when they walk ahead. No one can see my back but God. My future is secure in His hand and I am not worried about it.

Finally, I am done with photo assignment~~

Well, I just want to drop by and tell you how I am doing right now. I can't tell you how much I feel so relieve from finishing my photo conceptual assignment. Well, I have it finished just before the class starts. I am still waiting for Thursday's critique time ...I am not sure how everyone would comment on it since my photo element is quite different than everyones. I hope to get rest now and brush up on the assignment again before Thursday. Someday, I will show you all the pictures which I have taken from all my projects.

While I was busy with last week in Imagine RIT, church graduation, and others....I would like to pour out my heart to those people whom I have always been thinking or missing about...always remember that you are in my prayers. ..Zeuven, Bee khim, Dave, Garret, Betty, Esther, Cherry, Aziana, ....and all of those who is around me. I am wishing you all well~~~

I finally got my gown.

Just yesterday , Rain came to the library and looked for me. She talked about the caps & gown which she had taken from the campus connection. I was telling her, " Gosh, I almost forgot about it since I was studying for Chinese exam." Rain wanted me to help her to get another Spring Festival T-Shirt. I left the library early and went to SAU. On the way, I dropped by CC to check out my cap & gown. I am really amazed that RIT is so systematic that it has all the names for the students who are graduating and whether they suppose to get a cord or not. Rain was wondering how come she didn't get any cord and thought maybe on the day itself , she would get a cord. I was also wondering if I get a cord as well or not. Sigh, cord really means something ya.

So, I told the lady my height was 5 feet 2 and graduate as a Bachelor. While holding my pack, I had to wait in line for my name to be check off. As she was looking for my name, I was really hoping to get a cord. My heart churned and full of joy when I saw a letter H in the row of my name.

Hey..mom, I wanted to call you on the night itself but I was too tired that I dozed off to sleep right away I reach my room. I have been finishing an assignment for my photo project. Hope you get to read this.

Digitla me

It's funny how it seems so easy to learn how to build website. The coolest thing that I have learned today in Web Foundation is called 'Mouseover Button.' Suddenly, I realized how we tend to make everything digital and doesn't depend on our effort any more because there is alwasy a tool to change everything and make the effect.

For example, just today Moo bought a tablet pen. The pen then draws line on a canvas in the laptop. You can change the strokes of the pen and color. Then I was thinking about how I used to have all the pens and colored pencils to create a colorful paper. And it takes a long time to finish the drawings. Then, people would praise me for such a wonderful work if it is a good one. Right now, with the features from a tool , things can be made in such a sort time and it is easy! But then my work is praised and all that for an easy effort. (*this is just my personal feeling). Anyway, I will include traditional effort to my digital effort.

Back to the point, here is my work.


About Button

The start of Graduation Symptoms

Even though I could feel the excitement of Spring Festival, ie getting free Spring T-shirts and knowing the activities which would be held in May, at the same time I feel myself running away or avoiding graduation. I realized I phobia with the things below and yet I cannot run away because I am pushed by other current like my friends who dragged me into it.

1. Picking up Senior tickets for picnics and dinner nite.
2. Picking up gown and caps.
3. Departments giving out free food as a symbol to end the year.
4. Walk in the ceremony.
5. Browsing through friend's graduation pictures.
. And others that I have not encountered yet....

Oh well...maybe I should see it in a good way since I cannot run away. Also, I don't think I want to stay in RIT for my whole life....lol.

I love Spring so much

Lately it has been a wonderful days......bright n shiny, fresh greens (sometimes I feel like munching on them), flowers blooming, people walking here and there,...........everything, when I look at the trees and environment, I felt like God is slowly painting the land with a pallete of colors....and it is all up to His creation and creativity! Don't you find it interesting and amusing? Well, I find it so...

With spring right now, I cannot stop expressing how much I love the place where God has put me in. Spring seem to be a new meaning to me while at the same time can be saddening...not like sad sad but like a heavy sense of miss. I am really keeping up a lot of faith at the place I am. Anyway...I mean, time reveals to me the friendships around me. Time shows how my friends take me dearest to them and vice versa. Time show how we are holding up with each other in character building. Time shows we can be a family despite of diversity. Time shows how we encourage and support each other. Time to learn how to bear with each other. It seems that God knows the place I want to be and He is great as He has given me more. Having said that, this is why , this would be the biggest thing I would feel heavy hearted leaving them behind. Even though I want to stay here with as long as I want but each of us has a place to go, a place for a new stage to learn and improve ourselves. As of now, we are one and appreciate the remainder of time we have left. I can do now is to pray for their good welfare and undertakings. Zerene, Paul, Jinhee, Moo, Appa, Wai Ling and Yabe ---> Thank you for being with me and my greatest friends. ...I have to say each of us is really special in its way.

Spring represents a new beginning. A new beginning for me to build up my faith before going somewhere else. ..a new faith ..

Something churning inside of me.

Today, I felt like I wasn't that responsive to the things surrounding me. No matter where I go or whoever I am meeting, I don't feel like talking more than 1 sentence . All I could do is sincerely smiling at everyone and wishing the best for them.

I feel like I am standing on a cloud. A cloud which is taking me to a destination. From the cloud I would look down to the things underneath and from there I observe every single detail and moments of an event. The event could be just simply observing two person talking, seeing a group of people doing their usual spring stuff on the lawn, seeing an instructor teaching away, listening to my friends talking about their highlights of the day....all these I could observe, feel for them, however, because I am on the cloud I only could send them my smiles and words without able to reach out to them.

I could choose not to do so or put myself in such situation, I could be more expressive and easily words out my thoughts. But, it seem hard to do that. I ask myself? Am I threatening myself for being such a situation? Am I going to stop meeting new people?

When I think about this, on the other side, I have a strong sense that God is trying to do something. I feel that He wants me to be in silent and pray faithfully in my heart to things happening in my life. I do know that my life is starting to change and I am not sure how it is changing but God is at work for something. Every moment of waiting and each moment of patience, I find myself at awe seeing God's work around me. It seems that He has something great for me and despite of my wailing, (it's amazing how still I am about this) I have few words to ask him.

I remember the time I felt like this, was the time right after I finished my high school. I was in an intersection deciding which path should I choose to take. I taken the road which my parent wanted me to but God changed my direction. Thinking back, God is a loving person and He actually let me walked in a path which served Him and still let fulfilling my desires.

Right now, I wonder if I am being dumb to let myself feel like this again and totally waiting on Him in this time of intersection. I have a strong feeling that God wants me to learn about something else. Although I am worried sick about my future, I still keep up my faith in Him knowing that He has plans for me.

Father, Lord. I ask of you that you do not keep me in waiting too long but reveal to me of Your divine purposes. I am Your servant and I walk my life in You. Amen.

Laos Temple nearby

When I just arrived home from school together with Zerene and Moo, at the kitchen, Jinhee n Lise was talking about walking to see a 'yellow' temple nearby. I was grinning upon hearing that. So, we thought of cycling to the place to see the temple. It was funny that things like this happen...I mean because I have never seen such temple in close proximity especially in a place like Rochester...no one would thought of seeing one. The temple looks really new and painted with golden color . The front door was decorated with two dragons on the stair. On the walls, are carving of flower patterns. I saw a monk with white clothing and a woman with darker brown walked to the temple just a few feet away from their house. After a minute, came two bald younger monks from the house. One of them spoke to Moo and talked about something. As usual, Moo doesn't tell much about what he converse with other people.

Sometime later, I think I will go there again and take picture for my narrative picture project.Hehe... that's the highlight of my day.

Helping out d homeless

I don't know how to start writing but one thing I do know is that I felt so different after today's event. Aside from going to church, enjoying the sunny spring, listening to the birds chirping, returning my things to Home Depot, I finally get to get involve in CAre Connection. It is a sign-up event for the church people to help out in the community.

Today, our trip to downtown became a nervous and scary one. After finding the apartment called Open Door Mission, I tried to look for parking area. We asked a guy who seem to one of the homeless people. He asked us to park 25 feet away when actually just had to park a few feet away. Luckily, we didn't hear what he said and manage to get a parking just at the corner of the block. We were really scary to go into the mission. Zerene bravely ask one of the black guy who was in the kitchen about who we are and how we can help. That guy was really strict and strong and he was the one advising us what to do in the kitchen. Upon arriving, we were quickly been assigned to clean the table with a pail of water and rags. (Actually it is not detergent water but I said to Zerene: This is bleach.) Even though I wasn't comfortable knowing my hand is exposed to bleach, but because I scared of the black guy I just keep quiet and cleaned the brown and white tables quickly. Moo was also cleaning the table while Zerene dried them.

Then, an old couple came from EGC, helped us with arranging the plastic silverware. I arranged them on the right side of the sitting (and I guess doesn't matter to the homeless since they rushed for the food). Next, we helped with scooping the cocktail fruit, cutting up onions & tomatoes for the salad mix. There was nothing left to do; we sat down a little while to listen to a guy in front singing a few Christian songs until we were called back up again to pour the Italian dressings on the salad. I thought that we had to sit back out at the dining tables, instead, we were asked to standby at the kitchen. There was another white guy asking the black guy wat he has to do and whether or not we should go out there to help too. The black guy was protecting us (I guess because we are girls) and said " I want the girls just to be back here in the kitchen." Looking at him and his attitude, I believe that he knows so well the homeless think that he is very careful and strict on everything. During the time the dinner plates were given out, he was very meticulous about how things should be done. He probably had done so many times serving food to the homeless. He wanted so much to make sure that each person was assigned a task. I volunteered to do the corn (cos of the colorn smell) and Moo would do the beans and Zerene adding the buns. The black guy was counting the plates while putting into the plate with 2 big hot dogs.

I think he is really careful about the amount of food that he is giving out. There were more people than the number of people he should give . He was worried not having enough sausages for everyone. It's funny how the white guy assured him that the food was enough for everyone and he refered to the passage about Paul breaking the bread enough for everyone to eat despite of the small number of bread. Another funny things is , Moo saw a homeless throwing away the sausages. Haha..so ironic.

Anyway, this is my first time going out to downtown and helping out the homeless. Although the experience is scary but I feel so much motivated after coming back. I realized that I have take things for granted for the things I have around me. I should learn to bless other people more. It was great that we were able to donate some clothes to the homeless. I also learned that, although people speak in a different tone and style of language, there is the commonality, the passion to serve. I learned that in a situation like this, a smile on the face brings warmth and easiness to the people around. I didn't understand why the white guy felt so happy knowing that I was the first person to smile at people. (I smiled because I was happy to meet people and help them) But, I understand later that everyone was gloomy , serious and uptight about the situation. I also learned that even though we are in hostile environment, we have to learn to trust the people around us especially those who were trying to encourage and motivate us. Always trust God that He puts us in safety as long as we have the heart to serve Him.

Although we helped so wholeheartedly, but I do have questions. How did the homeless ended where they are? How did their life change after knowing the people who faithfully serve them? Do they really think about their life and thinking of changing even though knowing that God sent Jesus Christ to die for their sin? Do they live their life continuously just by still eating the food for free? I don't know ...even though I want to know...but God is always at work.


Father I pray that You will continue to touch their heart and work in their heart about the precious life You have given to them. I pray Lord that You will move the mountains in their heart and get back to the purpose of life You want them to do. I pray Lord that You will put out the bitterness in their heart and learn to go back to their loves one, if their relatives are thinking about them. I pray Lord that You instill their heart a new faith and hope in life, especially knowing that they could stand back up again with You holding their hands and walk one step at a time to the light You have promised them. Father, my heart really longs for changes in them and I earnestly to You. In Jesus name, Amen.

Was praying for snow

Yesterday, I was looking at the surrounding areas and I see how naked the trees are and how green the pastures are. Suddenly, I realized that I won't be able to see snow anymore! I know I am happy that spring is coming but I wasn't sure if I was able to come back to this country after I graduated. I realized that I might have taking things for granted especially wishing so much that the winter to go away.

However, later the end of the day, my friend told me that there will be snow the following day. I didn't really believe what my friend said and according to the weather forecast website which I usually refer , it didn't say anything about snow. I was expecting sunny days for the new week. But just this morning, I saw there was snow through my window and I didn't really think about it much but felt lazy to go out then. On the way to church, I realized that God answered my prayer and I silently said goodbye to snow. It dissapeared by 9 am. I guess if I didn't wake up early I would have missed seeing the snow. Gosh...I have never thought that snow is so important to me.

Oh well...spring...I can't wait to look for new beginning.

having hard time to sleep

Hmm....I am writing right from my bed as I am trying to relax and calm down before going to sleep. The clock already show 12.22 am and I haven't abit feeling sleepy because I could something is blocking my brain from telling my eyes to shut. I guess this is the result for sleeping past 2 am last night and had a restless night because the unconscious mind was thinking about website and other things.

Because of the unrested soul, I did many things differently and even the feelings I have towards someone tend to be more emotional, incholant or unreasonable. Come to think about it, they turn out to be funny and I don't really think that they are bad at all. I try not to see that I am dumb or useless. However, I always set my mind that I learning something new everyday and should take the wrong as a mistakes but knowing that how I should deal with things patiently.

我本来很想跟大家说一说关以我的今天的活动， 但是以想起有些事， 我觉得应该把所有不好的东四给忘掉。这样我觉得会感觉到生活会比较简单而不是一种孤单。 哎。。我的心里有好多心事可是不知道这么解决。 好吧。。。我会再写一篇。。。慢慢地等者哦。 谢谢你的观众。

Just a simple website

........yet it took up a lot of my time. I think it is my first time and I wasn't aware of the things that I should do first. I paid attention too much on the layout rather than the text. Well, I have to agree that I have one missing link in the website and I hope that the prof would not deduct my mark and yet still get amazed by my design. Anyways I don't know what to expect from my final. I think it is going to be challening and difficult but he outcome will be an awesome 1 as I learning how to make more sophisticated website. Seems like I am not afraid of website anymore but understand how it works now.... I think reading page source will be one of my leisures now. Feel free to visit the link below

Midterm-Jamestown Exposition

Cleaning Restroom on Monday

It was unusual to clean restroom on MOnday morning. Usually, I would go about being busy getting ready for school. But, I remember my responsibility to do the housechore last week...it was my turn to clean the restroom upstairs.

Three things I realized

1. The room is capable of collecting dusts because of its close proximity.

2. When there are 5 people using the restroom, it has to be clean every week! If not the stain stays on the wall especially the bath tub. I always see housewife cleaning the bath tub and it looked like a tough job, having to step into the bath and scrub the sides. I used to think what is so hard about that...but I learned it now.

3. I hate the smell of cleaning detergetn expecially Clorox (with bleach), and the glass cleaner spray, tub foam spray....gosh, I wonder what did the manufacturer put in the chemical that causes my nose to become dry and now with runny nose. I couldn't hardly smell anymore. Where are the olden days when we always use clothes and soap to clean....isn't much environmental friendly....I used more than 10 pieces of paper towel. Note: American restroom is not like Malaysian restroom. Water cannot be splash onto the floor because it is not mosaic but linoleum.

4. I feel like the bathroom is too civilized...everything is so concrete and dry inside. I think it need some refreshment like putting nature element in it.

Alright...thinking about tis, time to print out another new roster for the house & i hope I am not the last person to complete one of the tast. I wonder wat is next....

What would be my future like...

Here I am, after eating instant noodle spiced up with curry cube, I thought about my day today. The day goes by really quickly when I started to enjoy every moment of it. The weather was really warm at noon time around 15 C. I wonder if the spring has commenced in this area called Rochester. Rochester is a place for winter last up to 5 months. A few days ago, I felt that I am getting tired of snow and really looking forward to see the spring time.

Anyway, there are things I wanted to be thankful for. These might sound a little bit weird, but I did about how wonderful it was to learn the characters to the common Chinese speaking. Although there are some words which I find difficult to remember, at least I am not Chinese illiterate. With that said, I hope to get A for this class....it is not easy class...Advanced Chinese 3. Next, I learned about photography ... you know what, a walk in the morning with holding my camera is a good mind-relaxing therapy and also get my heart feel peaceful.

to be continued...

Battery dying...

*fuh*...

I can't believe it is another end of a day. Today, the time flies really quick and I felt that I just did not many things. I can't remember what I did today. I realize that I shouldn't flood my mind with too much worries. Things supposed to be fun and enjoyable especially in the class that I am taking this quarter. Maybe, it is because I like what I am learning, that I feel very tense about it. Hmm...it seem weird though. I thought it suppose to be the other way round.

Anyway, I feel so much relieved to know that I have gotten my photography assignment finished tonight. I spent a long time trying to get it done. My concern right now is at whether my photography skills are up to par or not. The instructor wants to see whether we have improved our photographs taking. I doubt that I have. I had a bad luck with my manual camera. At the Walmart, the salesman came to me and holding a long film. I was so disappointed to had been told that nothing was on the film. The camera failed to wind the film every after a shot. I was really sad and I was eager to see the outcome of my manual shooting especially the shutter speed and f-stop. On a second thought, I am grateful that I brought along a SLR digital camera and capture the moments while at the same time using the manual camera.

Lesson learned...next time I will just ask for the same camera from the cage. The first time I use film camera was the CAnon EOS-1N. Sometimes, it is very frustrating to know which camera is good to use. But, I guess it is not about how good is the camera just a matter of how well you use it. Even though you buy a very good camera and if you do not develop a skill in using it, there is no point to getting quality pictures.

I hope that my instructor would be understanding about my situation. I didn't get enough photos this time. I really wonder what are the class' comments on my pictures.

Last night, I dreamed about how I was being chased and hunt down by GU president for not doing a good job in the club. I hope I would not dreamed about the photo assignment. It will be devastating memory to know that a camera is running after me and trying to shoot me down into its lens before landing on the film. Hahah...

Thanks for reading.

Unusual 'jump start' of the Week

When you read about 'jump start' , would you think of the car being started up after a battery died?

I feel like that today. I felt as if I have been boosted up with another source of energy and ready to do things for the day. This morning, my friend ask me to see if I could try jump starting her car which left abandoned by Jefferson Road three days ago. I didn't know that it could still be the battery problem even though the lights are still on. Last Friday, I didn't think of doing it because I thought could be the engine's problem since the sound of the car being started was different than today.

It was very kind of Jim to help me jump start the car. Despite the trouble, I still manage to enjoy the day. Zerene bought breakfast from McDonald. We ate there while waiting for Jinhee's car to be charged up for 20 minutes. I let Zerene to drive my car and I drove the other car back home. I reached school at a quarter to 12 noon.

The Blue is At It again

I have never feel so certain about myself. I have never defended myself so much. I have never felt so angry about something before. I am feeling them right now. I don't understand about guys, I know it but I feel that there are something which is not important. I am hate it very much when people have to talk about the way I look. I am comfortable with myself and don't have to please other people in the way I look. I have never get so pissed off than this.

I am eager to read all these books

1. "But don't all religions lead to God?" by Michael Green


2. 'The case for faith'by Lee Strobel


3. Thai for Beginner


4. 'for women only' by Shaunti Feldhahn


5. "C.S Lewis: The Complete C.S. Lewis Signature Classic

Web Foudation~~~~~

Hahaha... I can't wait to finish up my website. It is just in preliminary stages as I slowly learning the language of web designing. It was exciting to know that one can make a website in such a short time, well, in 2 hours! It becomes more exciting as you learn how to puts styles into your web content.

I have a very good female instructor named Tona. She is very cheerful, sarcastic at times, helpful and understanding. She said she didn't like computer at first but she got back to it in her 30's and now she is a proffesor in RIT. (Hmm..ever wonder how one's path changes...well if that doesn't make you ponder but it does for me). Every Monday and Wednesday I would spend 2 hours in the mac computer lab of the Computer Science Department. Times seem to fly when learning the fun stuff.

Alright...let me show you what I've got and see if it works in this post..

Angie's Web Foundations Page

Links to my Web Foundations projects:

1. Midterm


2. Final


3. Gallery

Some of my favorite Web Sites:

• Channel 8tv


• New Straits Time



• Google

For such a long time now~~~~~

AAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................

That's all I wanted to do. Screaming to my heart's content! Have you done this before?

I miss those days which I can scream to the top of my lungs in my house, where no one even bother to care. My brother would think I am crazy, my mom would think she is at it again, and my dad thinks I am still childish. Oh well, what can I do everyone is different.

Back to the point, this morning I felt so gloomy and I felt that something just going to happen. Also, it is the day I think about Jesus last 12 hours before dying on the cross. Yes, I naturally feel remorse at the thought of Him dying on the cross. It would mean it is the end of His wise teaching, end of His encounter to the people, end of His fellowship to His disciples, end of His power....and most of all, He was willing to go all the way to die for our sins. Think about this...what kind of person who would sacrifice himself to die on the cross for us....if you can't see how lurid the picture is...I recommend that you watch Passion of the Christ.


Anyway, the reason to my arrival of discontentment is ...to think about the dissapointment I see for the people who do not trust Him. At what point that make people so difficult to come to God? I mean doesn't His word says it all clearly? I know I shouldn't be so judgemental but I am compassionate about them...to the point I feel that, there is no time to waste, that His ready to be accepted anytime. But, human stubborness doesn't let things flows into their heart that easily. Please do not misunderstand me, I am not trying to put up debate line here neither do I want to convert anyone. God has His way to teach each and every heart of the humans He wants to. Just that, when will a person be open to accept it. Sigh......

That's all I wanna say and vent out my dissapointment.

January 22

When I checked back my last blog entry, it was Jan 12. It has been 10 days I didn't write in this blog. Many things happened lately. Sometimes, the sense of frustration flooded me but sometimes when I think about those past memories, there were a blessings. I will always try to keep myself in the right perspective.

Last Sunday, I went for bowling with everyone again. It has become a natural for all of us to hang out during the weekend. It was a good opportunity to talk with other , other than just studying during the week days. Funny thing happen on that day was, Elliot made some dance moves on the bowling floor.

First time - Skiing~~~

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I went to Bristol Mountain for skiing today with all my housemates ( Jinhee, Zerene, & Chen-Hiu) and other friends whom we all usually hang out with ( Preety, Emmanuel, Moo and Elliot). I volunteered to drive to the place but because I was a little bit nervous with highway ( I didn't drive on highway for a long time since my trip to Boston & Buffalo) I missed noticing the sign 390 and took the wrong turn to NY Thruway and headed west of NY instead. It was a long ride until Chile as we ( I drove Emmanuel's car + Elliot + Moo) couldn't find any exit and we were afraid to make a u-turn since it is illegal. * amazed* later did we find out that jinhee made a u-turn to the east cos she followed me on the road. Anyway, funny thing is , we thought we were back to Rochester but we got back to 390 South to square one of the trip. So, the whole trip took me 2 hours to drive and Jinhee the others were already there in Bristol Mountain. Another funny thing is we passed by our church on the way to Bristol. So, the way of coming home was easy because it lead us back to our house and RIT locally.

Almost at the end of the drive, we reached a mountainous area. From far, at the view of seeing three lanes of white snow blanketing the bare mountains decorated with lamps on each side, it was a breathtaking site. I wasn't very keen about the idea of skiing because I am aware of my lacking in agility. However, after seeing how exciting and fun it was for others to do skiing, and to me it look so easy, I let myself to try the 'extreme' sport. It is definitely not easy as it seems to look like from far. It was hard to control the ski because my leg is well grounded in a thick paded hard boots. I had to step on the clips attached to the ski to have my boots secured. (The clips can be adjusted to the size of the boots. The length of the skii should be according to your size). Once I secured my boots, the fun and fear of it comes right away as I started sliding down the hill. It was really hard to move the heavy skii on the snow. I had to use all my arm's strength to halt me from sliding away, using the two hooks. The hooks are actually to stabilize you in case anything happens but other than that it is not useful in pulling you up or stop you from sliding. There was this conveyor rope which I could hold on to , to get myself up to the top of the hill. It was so fast that I lose my hooks and just ski up to the hill. When I stopped, I was lounged forward because the skii had slided downwards before even I make a turn. After I get myself positioned ( I had to take out my boots from the ski) , I whoosh down the hill in increasing speed because i had not idea how to use my hooks or stop ! In the end, and maybe i was dumb, i bent my knees and I slided down the grassland with my back. I guess I didn't want to hurt my ankle anymore after my skating incidence two years back. After that slide, I surrender and head back to the resting area with my other friends.

Thinking about tonight, it was a fun night. I realized that I am so blessed for being able to do something extreme like that, especially in US! I won't be able to do such thing if I were in MY. Thinking about other things that I had done over the summer, this is what American life is. Heheh.....

Photos coming soon~~~

About my future~~

I have been thinking about lately about my future. It is something I have come to decide about after a few days having peace about my plans. I hope the Lord keep my plans in thought and bless them. This is my plan, in Lord's will.

Spring Quarter : I will take two or three classes which I would like to enjoy for discovery.
Summer: Do an internship in Germany to have a feel about how it is like to study master or phD .If not I would just do a co-op anywhere in USA.

Fall (sept 2008) - I will return to MY and report to JPA. Within 6 months, I will find job and hopefully will be released from JPA crutch.

Within the six month, I would also visit my eldest sister to see her brand new baby.While near Hong Kong, I might visit a friend in Taiwan. then, visit my second sister who had just migrated to Melbourne, Australia with my mom. AFter that, visit my third sister to see her second baby.

I would also like to do some short term mission trip to any place around the world. I would like to see how it is like to test my faith in God, after all the learning.

The reason why I have come to do decision because, first of all, I feel uncertain and not ready for graduate school yet because it involves very intense commitment to research. As a girl who has just discovered the value of life, I would to like find my interest and do something that my heart wants. I want enjoy the time of life slowly remembering the small details of life which can be count as a blessings and valuable memory.

My goals for now: (always for other's interest)

1. To be at home for a year, near my parents. My parents are really old and I want to be with them after 4 years being away. I miss home very much!

2. To serve the Lord

3. Have the time to truly study God's word.

4. Try to find what do I really interest about.


Come to think about it, all this sound too late for to discover ya?

The house back to normal

Hmm..... hmm... almost about the end of two months period, the house atmosphere had died done to a very quiet environment. However, since last night, the house has become a camaderie ground for all girl's laughter and talk. Although I might enjoy being lonely in my room, however, it is not for too long. Somehow, it is still good to be around people even though I am not that actively involve in conversation. I feel blessed because I finally realized how true and good friends God have assigned around me....

Zerene!! Good to have you back and see your laughter again. :D Thanks for the pretty hand-sewn shirt...first 1 ever from a fren! You can be a good housewive ..

Wah~~~

Finally I have finished my GRE. Although it didn't turn out as I hope, I will still go ahead with applying for graduate school. Many people have encouraged me to keep applying and see the results. This is really encouraging to me and it drives to me to search for the school.

The fourth week of school has started and the first day of the week has been really welcoming to the students because the weather was really warm. The temperature was up to 20 C on the second day. Despite of the joy to be able to feel one of the spring days again, I am experiencing a really bad headache because of the pressure changes. It makes me cannot think well even though I could still speak. Anyway, I thought it was hard to start the week since I wasn't able to enjoy the break as much as I wanted to especially having my own sweet time doing something I like. GRE really took up my time. Nevermind, but one thing is I was able to enjoy the break with special someone and I am glad we had that sweet time together.

I enjoyed the Christmas Eve and Christmas Break so much. I went to church for a comtemporary rock service. It was quite different atmosphere compare to last year. The next day, there was a small christmas party at home. It was good that I was able to enjoy the party with other friends. After that, we watch 2 movies in a row in Regal Cinema.

Answer 2 My Crying

Recalling the time I cried profusely on my bed, it is really strange that I have become a totally new person the next day. I called my mom and told her about how I felt that night. She told me sometimes she cried without any reason at all too and feel much better the next day. I guess it is just how a person renew oneself , I guess especially girls who are a little more emotional.

In my opinion, after letting all my tears out, I felt a sense of renewal and a breath of joy feels my heart. I realized these tears must represent something in my life. These tears flowing out was the accumulation of hurt of the past 2 years that I didn't deal with in a proper way. I weld up all my feelings by myself in my heart. With the new year coming, the Lord must have ignite my heart to pour out everything at once for healing. Now, I see my life worth seeking a live for. Thank God for his grace and care. He sure knows more than I do , about myself.

I wrote this when I am about to have GRE in 2 hours time. Hehe...aren't I suppose to study ya?