January 22

When I checked back my last blog entry, it was Jan 12. It has been 10 days I didn't write in this blog. Many things happened lately. Sometimes, the sense of frustration flooded me but sometimes when I think about those past memories, there were a blessings. I will always try to keep myself in the right perspective.

Last Sunday, I went for bowling with everyone again. It has become a natural for all of us to hang out during the weekend. It was a good opportunity to talk with other , other than just studying during the week days. Funny thing happen on that day was, Elliot made some dance moves on the bowling floor.

First time - Skiing~~~

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I went to Bristol Mountain for skiing today with all my housemates ( Jinhee, Zerene, & Chen-Hiu) and other friends whom we all usually hang out with ( Preety, Emmanuel, Moo and Elliot). I volunteered to drive to the place but because I was a little bit nervous with highway ( I didn't drive on highway for a long time since my trip to Boston & Buffalo) I missed noticing the sign 390 and took the wrong turn to NY Thruway and headed west of NY instead. It was a long ride until Chile as we ( I drove Emmanuel's car + Elliot + Moo) couldn't find any exit and we were afraid to make a u-turn since it is illegal. * amazed* later did we find out that jinhee made a u-turn to the east cos she followed me on the road. Anyway, funny thing is , we thought we were back to Rochester but we got back to 390 South to square one of the trip. So, the whole trip took me 2 hours to drive and Jinhee the others were already there in Bristol Mountain. Another funny thing is we passed by our church on the way to Bristol. So, the way of coming home was easy because it lead us back to our house and RIT locally.

Almost at the end of the drive, we reached a mountainous area. From far, at the view of seeing three lanes of white snow blanketing the bare mountains decorated with lamps on each side, it was a breathtaking site. I wasn't very keen about the idea of skiing because I am aware of my lacking in agility. However, after seeing how exciting and fun it was for others to do skiing, and to me it look so easy, I let myself to try the 'extreme' sport. It is definitely not easy as it seems to look like from far. It was hard to control the ski because my leg is well grounded in a thick paded hard boots. I had to step on the clips attached to the ski to have my boots secured. (The clips can be adjusted to the size of the boots. The length of the skii should be according to your size). Once I secured my boots, the fun and fear of it comes right away as I started sliding down the hill. It was really hard to move the heavy skii on the snow. I had to use all my arm's strength to halt me from sliding away, using the two hooks. The hooks are actually to stabilize you in case anything happens but other than that it is not useful in pulling you up or stop you from sliding. There was this conveyor rope which I could hold on to , to get myself up to the top of the hill. It was so fast that I lose my hooks and just ski up to the hill. When I stopped, I was lounged forward because the skii had slided downwards before even I make a turn. After I get myself positioned ( I had to take out my boots from the ski) , I whoosh down the hill in increasing speed because i had not idea how to use my hooks or stop ! In the end, and maybe i was dumb, i bent my knees and I slided down the grassland with my back. I guess I didn't want to hurt my ankle anymore after my skating incidence two years back. After that slide, I surrender and head back to the resting area with my other friends.

Thinking about tonight, it was a fun night. I realized that I am so blessed for being able to do something extreme like that, especially in US! I won't be able to do such thing if I were in MY. Thinking about other things that I had done over the summer, this is what American life is. Heheh.....

Photos coming soon~~~

About my future~~

I have been thinking about lately about my future. It is something I have come to decide about after a few days having peace about my plans. I hope the Lord keep my plans in thought and bless them. This is my plan, in Lord's will.

Spring Quarter : I will take two or three classes which I would like to enjoy for discovery.
Summer: Do an internship in Germany to have a feel about how it is like to study master or phD .If not I would just do a co-op anywhere in USA.

Fall (sept 2008) - I will return to MY and report to JPA. Within 6 months, I will find job and hopefully will be released from JPA crutch.

Within the six month, I would also visit my eldest sister to see her brand new baby.While near Hong Kong, I might visit a friend in Taiwan. then, visit my second sister who had just migrated to Melbourne, Australia with my mom. AFter that, visit my third sister to see her second baby.

I would also like to do some short term mission trip to any place around the world. I would like to see how it is like to test my faith in God, after all the learning.

The reason why I have come to do decision because, first of all, I feel uncertain and not ready for graduate school yet because it involves very intense commitment to research. As a girl who has just discovered the value of life, I would to like find my interest and do something that my heart wants. I want enjoy the time of life slowly remembering the small details of life which can be count as a blessings and valuable memory.

My goals for now: (always for other's interest)

1. To be at home for a year, near my parents. My parents are really old and I want to be with them after 4 years being away. I miss home very much!

2. To serve the Lord

3. Have the time to truly study God's word.

4. Try to find what do I really interest about.


Come to think about it, all this sound too late for to discover ya?

The house back to normal

Hmm..... hmm... almost about the end of two months period, the house atmosphere had died done to a very quiet environment. However, since last night, the house has become a camaderie ground for all girl's laughter and talk. Although I might enjoy being lonely in my room, however, it is not for too long. Somehow, it is still good to be around people even though I am not that actively involve in conversation. I feel blessed because I finally realized how true and good friends God have assigned around me....

Zerene!! Good to have you back and see your laughter again. :D Thanks for the pretty hand-sewn shirt...first 1 ever from a fren! You can be a good housewive ..

Wah~~~

Finally I have finished my GRE. Although it didn't turn out as I hope, I will still go ahead with applying for graduate school. Many people have encouraged me to keep applying and see the results. This is really encouraging to me and it drives to me to search for the school.

The fourth week of school has started and the first day of the week has been really welcoming to the students because the weather was really warm. The temperature was up to 20 C on the second day. Despite of the joy to be able to feel one of the spring days again, I am experiencing a really bad headache because of the pressure changes. It makes me cannot think well even though I could still speak. Anyway, I thought it was hard to start the week since I wasn't able to enjoy the break as much as I wanted to especially having my own sweet time doing something I like. GRE really took up my time. Nevermind, but one thing is I was able to enjoy the break with special someone and I am glad we had that sweet time together.

I enjoyed the Christmas Eve and Christmas Break so much. I went to church for a comtemporary rock service. It was quite different atmosphere compare to last year. The next day, there was a small christmas party at home. It was good that I was able to enjoy the party with other friends. After that, we watch 2 movies in a row in Regal Cinema.

Answer 2 My Crying

Recalling the time I cried profusely on my bed, it is really strange that I have become a totally new person the next day. I called my mom and told her about how I felt that night. She told me sometimes she cried without any reason at all too and feel much better the next day. I guess it is just how a person renew oneself , I guess especially girls who are a little more emotional.

In my opinion, after letting all my tears out, I felt a sense of renewal and a breath of joy feels my heart. I realized these tears must represent something in my life. These tears flowing out was the accumulation of hurt of the past 2 years that I didn't deal with in a proper way. I weld up all my feelings by myself in my heart. With the new year coming, the Lord must have ignite my heart to pour out everything at once for healing. Now, I see my life worth seeking a live for. Thank God for his grace and care. He sure knows more than I do , about myself.

I wrote this when I am about to have GRE in 2 hours time. Hehe...aren't I suppose to study ya?