Malaysia , a year break

Sigh...I am back to Malaysia. The feeling is really different now. I am back to my hometown and actually trying hard to make myself study. I never thought that it would be that hard to make sure I am hardworking. I realized my town is really peaceful and laid back that no doubt I will be influenced like that. But, they say I might not have the strong determination in me to uphold myself.

Well, well....no matter how hard I try. I am still the same. I am helpless to see myself staring at the front page of 'Cracking the GRE' and pondering about whether I can score d exam in a month's time. Whether or not I will be able to conquer this exam, it's up to my motivation n determination. Gosh..where to get all that motivation?

Last thing about Rochester

Today, I went to try South Indian food in India Palace Restaurant. I heard that we were able to try Masala Dosai. It was really big and it's my favourite food. It's good to know that Rochester has dosai. I had fun knowing Zerene's friend Swarop and his friends from UofR.

After dinner, the group separated as one side wanted to watch in Pittsford while we , thought tat, watched movie in Regal. We ended up going to Movie 10 and watch Forbidden Kingdom...a movie I wanted to watch after watching a trailer on dvd. I couldn't imagine that I could watch this today. I really like movie which has some historical element in it.

Well...after the movie, I came back to the web and search information about the movie. It was the first time for Jackie Chan and Jet Li to co-host in a movie together. It was a hilarious one indeed.

Alright friends, **getting ur attention** don't forget to call me when you watch these movies

The Mummy: The Tomb of Dragon Emperor
The Children of Huangshi

* You should know by now that my favourite actor and actress (the first time I am announcing my favourite movie star) Jackie Chan and Michelle Yeoh. American actor & actress is Sandra Bullock and Robbie Williams.

It seems...

..that my summer here in US is ending.
.. that I have to start saying goodbyes to everyone.
.. that having a farewell gathering after church service is saddening.
.. leaving Rochester for a new adventure sounds exciting.
.. that all the memories pertaining to this area surfacing my mind unnoticingly.
.. that the fun time with housemates is getting more memorable than before.
.. that God's plentiful blessings are around me all this while.
.. that being thankful and gratitude are the attitude I am in now.

Manual Car wash~~

Yesterday, we decided to go clean my car after doing some study in the library. Zerene told me Jinehee goes to a store to vacuum her car. We inserted 1 dollar into a big vacuum machine. We cleaned the car as quickly as possible. If I am not mistaken d vaccum only last for 5 minutes. I had to put in more money in order to finish cleaning everything.

Then we saw someone washing their car. It seems fun to see the guy foaming his car so much...stg like I see when a person wash a dog with so much foam. You see up there, that's how the set up is like for washing a car. I parked my car in a middle of the space, then we inserted 2 dollars and had to use up 8 modes to clean the car in 4 minutes. We werent' able to finish and had to insert more coins to add more minutes. Hahaha...it was fun...n i took pictures of my car so tat I can put out advertisement for car sale. Any1 wants my car? I am gonna miss it.

A wonderfully hot day

The weather today is sunny - which is good- but the temperature is still up to 34 C. It was very hot for me and Zerene to walk around RIT . We were there to finish up some small official work. The feeling of being in school getting mails sent, printing out passport size picture, handing in and getting documents signed are very pleasant when we are being treated so nicely because there weren't many people around especially having no lines to queue for.

Somehow, we noticed that there is some sort of silence this summer when you are alone with one friend, and there is nothing else to do but to thing but to try to find something to do. This is what I called it relaxation...haha. This is the time you take time to notice the things around you slowly and in detail. I realized that there are many things I missed out in summer and some of them I just discovered. I love how I am hanging out with my housemate...like today, we went to the McD to grab a cup of McFlurry and enjoy cooling down from the hot weather. That was our lunch meal after checking out the total calories we were stuffing down into our stomach....haha.

Back at home, I wanted to take nap so much because I slept really late last night watching a very funny movie called Kungfu Panda. It is really a great way to release your stress if you are planning to find something fun for a break. It was the premier day of that movie. Anyway, back to the point, I couldn't sleep in my room because it's too hot .So, I ended up dragging my blanket and little pillow down to the living room and slept on the floor , while my two other housemates are doing something. Then, Zerene (knowing that she would join me too cos of d heavy ice cream) just came and made my sleeping place smaller. Down in the living room, I enjoyed feeling and listening to the breeze coming in through two opened windows. I also could heard the loud hustling leaves freshly matured from the tree trunk. Sometimes, it is funny that I could heard the duck and geese making noises.

This summer is really unsual and special. Spring seems to be more prominent here. I see fluffy seeds (Zerene called them cosmos) flying down just like snow on to the ground. So, the ground looks as if covered with snow but actually like a layer of cotton.

What do you notices or like about summer?

Care Connectioin Pt 2

This morning, my beauty sleep got disturbed because Zerene and I had to go to a person's house to do window cleaning. Her house was on Bailey Road and it wasn' t too long that we found her house. The first thing we saw was an old lady sitting at garage with d door up, waiting for us to come. She is really nice and all but I got the feeling that she wasn't confident in our cleaning.

Anyway, we were asked to cleaned the wide windows in the living room facing the front yard. It was done in a second with three people. Then, we were offered drinks. We were surprised if that's the only job we had to do. So, I asked if she needed us to do other windows. In a hour's time, we cleaned all the windows of the house.

It's really funny how an old lady with family would asked people to help her with the windows. I thought we would be helping unfortunate family or something. The old lady cannot walk well . She explained about how she fell down from window cleaning and broke her pelvic bone. It was 20 years ago. Very very strange ....

Care

This

Time 4 a new story

Hmm...Now that spring has ended (although I felt like it just started) summer is walking into this season. Every new leaves, every new seed represents new beginning and a starting of a story. Similarly, my life is blooming into another new story , branching out in new ways at different directions. I wonder, how it would turn out to be like.

Spring was about ending my life as an undergraduate in RIT, ending my contributions and getting praise from God 'good job, well done!' Spring was also about spending the remaining time to be with friends before we depart. Each of us leaving one by one in a joyful way. Some have new goals to look into, a few stayed to continue pursuing their goals, some left for another kind of different purposes...yet, I didn't want to be d one to leave first. I chose to stay and don't mind to be d last one to leave because I chose to cherish the last moment for remembrance. I want to be at the that moment, to be the person to wish and pray for them a good blessings ahead. I want to remember their backs when they walk ahead. No one can see my back but God. My future is secure in His hand and I am not worried about it.

Finally, I am done with photo assignment~~

Well, I just want to drop by and tell you how I am doing right now. I can't tell you how much I feel so relieve from finishing my photo conceptual assignment. Well, I have it finished just before the class starts. I am still waiting for Thursday's critique time ...I am not sure how everyone would comment on it since my photo element is quite different than everyones. I hope to get rest now and brush up on the assignment again before Thursday. Someday, I will show you all the pictures which I have taken from all my projects.

While I was busy with last week in Imagine RIT, church graduation, and others....I would like to pour out my heart to those people whom I have always been thinking or missing about...always remember that you are in my prayers. ..Zeuven, Bee khim, Dave, Garret, Betty, Esther, Cherry, Aziana, ....and all of those who is around me. I am wishing you all well~~~

I finally got my gown.

Just yesterday , Rain came to the library and looked for me. She talked about the caps & gown which she had taken from the campus connection. I was telling her, " Gosh, I almost forgot about it since I was studying for Chinese exam." Rain wanted me to help her to get another Spring Festival T-Shirt. I left the library early and went to SAU. On the way, I dropped by CC to check out my cap & gown. I am really amazed that RIT is so systematic that it has all the names for the students who are graduating and whether they suppose to get a cord or not. Rain was wondering how come she didn't get any cord and thought maybe on the day itself , she would get a cord. I was also wondering if I get a cord as well or not. Sigh, cord really means something ya.

So, I told the lady my height was 5 feet 2 and graduate as a Bachelor. While holding my pack, I had to wait in line for my name to be check off. As she was looking for my name, I was really hoping to get a cord. My heart churned and full of joy when I saw a letter H in the row of my name.

Hey..mom, I wanted to call you on the night itself but I was too tired that I dozed off to sleep right away I reach my room. I have been finishing an assignment for my photo project. Hope you get to read this.

Digitla me

It's funny how it seems so easy to learn how to build website. The coolest thing that I have learned today in Web Foundation is called 'Mouseover Button.' Suddenly, I realized how we tend to make everything digital and doesn't depend on our effort any more because there is alwasy a tool to change everything and make the effect.

For example, just today Moo bought a tablet pen. The pen then draws line on a canvas in the laptop. You can change the strokes of the pen and color. Then I was thinking about how I used to have all the pens and colored pencils to create a colorful paper. And it takes a long time to finish the drawings. Then, people would praise me for such a wonderful work if it is a good one. Right now, with the features from a tool , things can be made in such a sort time and it is easy! But then my work is praised and all that for an easy effort. (*this is just my personal feeling). Anyway, I will include traditional effort to my digital effort.

Back to the point, here is my work.


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The start of Graduation Symptoms

Even though I could feel the excitement of Spring Festival, ie getting free Spring T-shirts and knowing the activities which would be held in May, at the same time I feel myself running away or avoiding graduation. I realized I phobia with the things below and yet I cannot run away because I am pushed by other current like my friends who dragged me into it.

1. Picking up Senior tickets for picnics and dinner nite.
2. Picking up gown and caps.
3. Departments giving out free food as a symbol to end the year.
4. Walk in the ceremony.
5. Browsing through friend's graduation pictures.
. And others that I have not encountered yet....

Oh well...maybe I should see it in a good way since I cannot run away. Also, I don't think I want to stay in RIT for my whole life....lol.

I love Spring so much

Lately it has been a wonderful days......bright n shiny, fresh greens (sometimes I feel like munching on them), flowers blooming, people walking here and there,...........everything, when I look at the trees and environment, I felt like God is slowly painting the land with a pallete of colors....and it is all up to His creation and creativity! Don't you find it interesting and amusing? Well, I find it so...

With spring right now, I cannot stop expressing how much I love the place where God has put me in. Spring seem to be a new meaning to me while at the same time can be saddening...not like sad sad but like a heavy sense of miss. I am really keeping up a lot of faith at the place I am. Anyway...I mean, time reveals to me the friendships around me. Time shows how my friends take me dearest to them and vice versa. Time show how we are holding up with each other in character building. Time shows we can be a family despite of diversity. Time shows how we encourage and support each other. Time to learn how to bear with each other. It seems that God knows the place I want to be and He is great as He has given me more. Having said that, this is why , this would be the biggest thing I would feel heavy hearted leaving them behind. Even though I want to stay here with as long as I want but each of us has a place to go, a place for a new stage to learn and improve ourselves. As of now, we are one and appreciate the remainder of time we have left. I can do now is to pray for their good welfare and undertakings. Zerene, Paul, Jinhee, Moo, Appa, Wai Ling and Yabe ---> Thank you for being with me and my greatest friends. ...I have to say each of us is really special in its way.

Spring represents a new beginning. A new beginning for me to build up my faith before going somewhere else. ..a new faith ..

Something churning inside of me.

Today, I felt like I wasn't that responsive to the things surrounding me. No matter where I go or whoever I am meeting, I don't feel like talking more than 1 sentence . All I could do is sincerely smiling at everyone and wishing the best for them.

I feel like I am standing on a cloud. A cloud which is taking me to a destination. From the cloud I would look down to the things underneath and from there I observe every single detail and moments of an event. The event could be just simply observing two person talking, seeing a group of people doing their usual spring stuff on the lawn, seeing an instructor teaching away, listening to my friends talking about their highlights of the day....all these I could observe, feel for them, however, because I am on the cloud I only could send them my smiles and words without able to reach out to them.

I could choose not to do so or put myself in such situation, I could be more expressive and easily words out my thoughts. But, it seem hard to do that. I ask myself? Am I threatening myself for being such a situation? Am I going to stop meeting new people?

When I think about this, on the other side, I have a strong sense that God is trying to do something. I feel that He wants me to be in silent and pray faithfully in my heart to things happening in my life. I do know that my life is starting to change and I am not sure how it is changing but God is at work for something. Every moment of waiting and each moment of patience, I find myself at awe seeing God's work around me. It seems that He has something great for me and despite of my wailing, (it's amazing how still I am about this) I have few words to ask him.

I remember the time I felt like this, was the time right after I finished my high school. I was in an intersection deciding which path should I choose to take. I taken the road which my parent wanted me to but God changed my direction. Thinking back, God is a loving person and He actually let me walked in a path which served Him and still let fulfilling my desires.

Right now, I wonder if I am being dumb to let myself feel like this again and totally waiting on Him in this time of intersection. I have a strong feeling that God wants me to learn about something else. Although I am worried sick about my future, I still keep up my faith in Him knowing that He has plans for me.

Father, Lord. I ask of you that you do not keep me in waiting too long but reveal to me of Your divine purposes. I am Your servant and I walk my life in You. Amen.

Laos Temple nearby

When I just arrived home from school together with Zerene and Moo, at the kitchen, Jinhee n Lise was talking about walking to see a 'yellow' temple nearby. I was grinning upon hearing that. So, we thought of cycling to the place to see the temple. It was funny that things like this happen...I mean because I have never seen such temple in close proximity especially in a place like Rochester...no one would thought of seeing one. The temple looks really new and painted with golden color . The front door was decorated with two dragons on the stair. On the walls, are carving of flower patterns. I saw a monk with white clothing and a woman with darker brown walked to the temple just a few feet away from their house. After a minute, came two bald younger monks from the house. One of them spoke to Moo and talked about something. As usual, Moo doesn't tell much about what he converse with other people.

Sometime later, I think I will go there again and take picture for my narrative picture project.Hehe... that's the highlight of my day.

Helping out d homeless

I don't know how to start writing but one thing I do know is that I felt so different after today's event. Aside from going to church, enjoying the sunny spring, listening to the birds chirping, returning my things to Home Depot, I finally get to get involve in CAre Connection. It is a sign-up event for the church people to help out in the community.

Today, our trip to downtown became a nervous and scary one. After finding the apartment called Open Door Mission, I tried to look for parking area. We asked a guy who seem to one of the homeless people. He asked us to park 25 feet away when actually just had to park a few feet away. Luckily, we didn't hear what he said and manage to get a parking just at the corner of the block. We were really scary to go into the mission. Zerene bravely ask one of the black guy who was in the kitchen about who we are and how we can help. That guy was really strict and strong and he was the one advising us what to do in the kitchen. Upon arriving, we were quickly been assigned to clean the table with a pail of water and rags. (Actually it is not detergent water but I said to Zerene: This is bleach.) Even though I wasn't comfortable knowing my hand is exposed to bleach, but because I scared of the black guy I just keep quiet and cleaned the brown and white tables quickly. Moo was also cleaning the table while Zerene dried them.

Then, an old couple came from EGC, helped us with arranging the plastic silverware. I arranged them on the right side of the sitting (and I guess doesn't matter to the homeless since they rushed for the food). Next, we helped with scooping the cocktail fruit, cutting up onions & tomatoes for the salad mix. There was nothing left to do; we sat down a little while to listen to a guy in front singing a few Christian songs until we were called back up again to pour the Italian dressings on the salad. I thought that we had to sit back out at the dining tables, instead, we were asked to standby at the kitchen. There was another white guy asking the black guy wat he has to do and whether or not we should go out there to help too. The black guy was protecting us (I guess because we are girls) and said " I want the girls just to be back here in the kitchen." Looking at him and his attitude, I believe that he knows so well the homeless think that he is very careful and strict on everything. During the time the dinner plates were given out, he was very meticulous about how things should be done. He probably had done so many times serving food to the homeless. He wanted so much to make sure that each person was assigned a task. I volunteered to do the corn (cos of the colorn smell) and Moo would do the beans and Zerene adding the buns. The black guy was counting the plates while putting into the plate with 2 big hot dogs.

I think he is really careful about the amount of food that he is giving out. There were more people than the number of people he should give . He was worried not having enough sausages for everyone. It's funny how the white guy assured him that the food was enough for everyone and he refered to the passage about Paul breaking the bread enough for everyone to eat despite of the small number of bread. Another funny things is , Moo saw a homeless throwing away the sausages. Haha..so ironic.

Anyway, this is my first time going out to downtown and helping out the homeless. Although the experience is scary but I feel so much motivated after coming back. I realized that I have take things for granted for the things I have around me. I should learn to bless other people more. It was great that we were able to donate some clothes to the homeless. I also learned that, although people speak in a different tone and style of language, there is the commonality, the passion to serve. I learned that in a situation like this, a smile on the face brings warmth and easiness to the people around. I didn't understand why the white guy felt so happy knowing that I was the first person to smile at people. (I smiled because I was happy to meet people and help them) But, I understand later that everyone was gloomy , serious and uptight about the situation. I also learned that even though we are in hostile environment, we have to learn to trust the people around us especially those who were trying to encourage and motivate us. Always trust God that He puts us in safety as long as we have the heart to serve Him.

Although we helped so wholeheartedly, but I do have questions. How did the homeless ended where they are? How did their life change after knowing the people who faithfully serve them? Do they really think about their life and thinking of changing even though knowing that God sent Jesus Christ to die for their sin? Do they live their life continuously just by still eating the food for free? I don't know ...even though I want to know...but God is always at work.


Father I pray that You will continue to touch their heart and work in their heart about the precious life You have given to them. I pray Lord that You will move the mountains in their heart and get back to the purpose of life You want them to do. I pray Lord that You will put out the bitterness in their heart and learn to go back to their loves one, if their relatives are thinking about them. I pray Lord that You instill their heart a new faith and hope in life, especially knowing that they could stand back up again with You holding their hands and walk one step at a time to the light You have promised them. Father, my heart really longs for changes in them and I earnestly to You. In Jesus name, Amen.

Was praying for snow

Yesterday, I was looking at the surrounding areas and I see how naked the trees are and how green the pastures are. Suddenly, I realized that I won't be able to see snow anymore! I know I am happy that spring is coming but I wasn't sure if I was able to come back to this country after I graduated. I realized that I might have taking things for granted especially wishing so much that the winter to go away.

However, later the end of the day, my friend told me that there will be snow the following day. I didn't really believe what my friend said and according to the weather forecast website which I usually refer , it didn't say anything about snow. I was expecting sunny days for the new week. But just this morning, I saw there was snow through my window and I didn't really think about it much but felt lazy to go out then. On the way to church, I realized that God answered my prayer and I silently said goodbye to snow. It dissapeared by 9 am. I guess if I didn't wake up early I would have missed seeing the snow. Gosh...I have never thought that snow is so important to me.

Oh well...spring...I can't wait to look for new beginning.

having hard time to sleep

Hmm....I am writing right from my bed as I am trying to relax and calm down before going to sleep. The clock already show 12.22 am and I haven't abit feeling sleepy because I could something is blocking my brain from telling my eyes to shut. I guess this is the result for sleeping past 2 am last night and had a restless night because the unconscious mind was thinking about website and other things.

Because of the unrested soul, I did many things differently and even the feelings I have towards someone tend to be more emotional, incholant or unreasonable. Come to think about it, they turn out to be funny and I don't really think that they are bad at all. I try not to see that I am dumb or useless. However, I always set my mind that I learning something new everyday and should take the wrong as a mistakes but knowing that how I should deal with things patiently.

我本来很想跟大家说一说关以我的今天的活动， 但是以想起有些事， 我觉得应该把所有不好的东四给忘掉。这样我觉得会感觉到生活会比较简单而不是一种孤单。 哎。。我的心里有好多心事可是不知道这么解决。 好吧。。。我会再写一篇。。。慢慢地等者哦。 谢谢你的观众。

Just a simple website

........yet it took up a lot of my time. I think it is my first time and I wasn't aware of the things that I should do first. I paid attention too much on the layout rather than the text. Well, I have to agree that I have one missing link in the website and I hope that the prof would not deduct my mark and yet still get amazed by my design. Anyways I don't know what to expect from my final. I think it is going to be challening and difficult but he outcome will be an awesome 1 as I learning how to make more sophisticated website. Seems like I am not afraid of website anymore but understand how it works now.... I think reading page source will be one of my leisures now. Feel free to visit the link below

Midterm-Jamestown Exposition

Cleaning Restroom on Monday

It was unusual to clean restroom on MOnday morning. Usually, I would go about being busy getting ready for school. But, I remember my responsibility to do the housechore last week...it was my turn to clean the restroom upstairs.

Three things I realized

1. The room is capable of collecting dusts because of its close proximity.

2. When there are 5 people using the restroom, it has to be clean every week! If not the stain stays on the wall especially the bath tub. I always see housewife cleaning the bath tub and it looked like a tough job, having to step into the bath and scrub the sides. I used to think what is so hard about that...but I learned it now.

3. I hate the smell of cleaning detergetn expecially Clorox (with bleach), and the glass cleaner spray, tub foam spray....gosh, I wonder what did the manufacturer put in the chemical that causes my nose to become dry and now with runny nose. I couldn't hardly smell anymore. Where are the olden days when we always use clothes and soap to clean....isn't much environmental friendly....I used more than 10 pieces of paper towel. Note: American restroom is not like Malaysian restroom. Water cannot be splash onto the floor because it is not mosaic but linoleum.

4. I feel like the bathroom is too civilized...everything is so concrete and dry inside. I think it need some refreshment like putting nature element in it.

Alright...thinking about tis, time to print out another new roster for the house & i hope I am not the last person to complete one of the tast. I wonder wat is next....