Time 4 a new story

Hmm...Now that spring has ended (although I felt like it just started) summer is walking into this season. Every new leaves, every new seed represents new beginning and a starting of a story. Similarly, my life is blooming into another new story , branching out in new ways at different directions. I wonder, how it would turn out to be like.

Spring was about ending my life as an undergraduate in RIT, ending my contributions and getting praise from God 'good job, well done!' Spring was also about spending the remaining time to be with friends before we depart. Each of us leaving one by one in a joyful way. Some have new goals to look into, a few stayed to continue pursuing their goals, some left for another kind of different purposes...yet, I didn't want to be d one to leave first. I chose to stay and don't mind to be d last one to leave because I chose to cherish the last moment for remembrance. I want to be at the that moment, to be the person to wish and pray for them a good blessings ahead. I want to remember their backs when they walk ahead. No one can see my back but God. My future is secure in His hand and I am not worried about it.

Finally, I am done with photo assignment~~

Well, I just want to drop by and tell you how I am doing right now. I can't tell you how much I feel so relieve from finishing my photo conceptual assignment. Well, I have it finished just before the class starts. I am still waiting for Thursday's critique time ...I am not sure how everyone would comment on it since my photo element is quite different than everyones. I hope to get rest now and brush up on the assignment again before Thursday. Someday, I will show you all the pictures which I have taken from all my projects.

While I was busy with last week in Imagine RIT, church graduation, and others....I would like to pour out my heart to those people whom I have always been thinking or missing about...always remember that you are in my prayers. ..Zeuven, Bee khim, Dave, Garret, Betty, Esther, Cherry, Aziana, ....and all of those who is around me. I am wishing you all well~~~

I finally got my gown.

Just yesterday , Rain came to the library and looked for me. She talked about the caps & gown which she had taken from the campus connection. I was telling her, " Gosh, I almost forgot about it since I was studying for Chinese exam." Rain wanted me to help her to get another Spring Festival T-Shirt. I left the library early and went to SAU. On the way, I dropped by CC to check out my cap & gown. I am really amazed that RIT is so systematic that it has all the names for the students who are graduating and whether they suppose to get a cord or not. Rain was wondering how come she didn't get any cord and thought maybe on the day itself , she would get a cord. I was also wondering if I get a cord as well or not. Sigh, cord really means something ya.

So, I told the lady my height was 5 feet 2 and graduate as a Bachelor. While holding my pack, I had to wait in line for my name to be check off. As she was looking for my name, I was really hoping to get a cord. My heart churned and full of joy when I saw a letter H in the row of my name.

Hey..mom, I wanted to call you on the night itself but I was too tired that I dozed off to sleep right away I reach my room. I have been finishing an assignment for my photo project. Hope you get to read this.

Digitla me

It's funny how it seems so easy to learn how to build website. The coolest thing that I have learned today in Web Foundation is called 'Mouseover Button.' Suddenly, I realized how we tend to make everything digital and doesn't depend on our effort any more because there is alwasy a tool to change everything and make the effect.

For example, just today Moo bought a tablet pen. The pen then draws line on a canvas in the laptop. You can change the strokes of the pen and color. Then I was thinking about how I used to have all the pens and colored pencils to create a colorful paper. And it takes a long time to finish the drawings. Then, people would praise me for such a wonderful work if it is a good one. Right now, with the features from a tool , things can be made in such a sort time and it is easy! But then my work is praised and all that for an easy effort. (*this is just my personal feeling). Anyway, I will include traditional effort to my digital effort.

Back to the point, here is my work.


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The start of Graduation Symptoms

Even though I could feel the excitement of Spring Festival, ie getting free Spring T-shirts and knowing the activities which would be held in May, at the same time I feel myself running away or avoiding graduation. I realized I phobia with the things below and yet I cannot run away because I am pushed by other current like my friends who dragged me into it.

1. Picking up Senior tickets for picnics and dinner nite.
2. Picking up gown and caps.
3. Departments giving out free food as a symbol to end the year.
4. Walk in the ceremony.
5. Browsing through friend's graduation pictures.
. And others that I have not encountered yet....

Oh well...maybe I should see it in a good way since I cannot run away. Also, I don't think I want to stay in RIT for my whole life....lol.

I love Spring so much

Lately it has been a wonderful days......bright n shiny, fresh greens (sometimes I feel like munching on them), flowers blooming, people walking here and there,...........everything, when I look at the trees and environment, I felt like God is slowly painting the land with a pallete of colors....and it is all up to His creation and creativity! Don't you find it interesting and amusing? Well, I find it so...

With spring right now, I cannot stop expressing how much I love the place where God has put me in. Spring seem to be a new meaning to me while at the same time can be saddening...not like sad sad but like a heavy sense of miss. I am really keeping up a lot of faith at the place I am. Anyway...I mean, time reveals to me the friendships around me. Time shows how my friends take me dearest to them and vice versa. Time show how we are holding up with each other in character building. Time shows we can be a family despite of diversity. Time shows how we encourage and support each other. Time to learn how to bear with each other. It seems that God knows the place I want to be and He is great as He has given me more. Having said that, this is why , this would be the biggest thing I would feel heavy hearted leaving them behind. Even though I want to stay here with as long as I want but each of us has a place to go, a place for a new stage to learn and improve ourselves. As of now, we are one and appreciate the remainder of time we have left. I can do now is to pray for their good welfare and undertakings. Zerene, Paul, Jinhee, Moo, Appa, Wai Ling and Yabe ---> Thank you for being with me and my greatest friends. ...I have to say each of us is really special in its way.

Spring represents a new beginning. A new beginning for me to build up my faith before going somewhere else. ..a new faith ..

Something churning inside of me.

Today, I felt like I wasn't that responsive to the things surrounding me. No matter where I go or whoever I am meeting, I don't feel like talking more than 1 sentence . All I could do is sincerely smiling at everyone and wishing the best for them.

I feel like I am standing on a cloud. A cloud which is taking me to a destination. From the cloud I would look down to the things underneath and from there I observe every single detail and moments of an event. The event could be just simply observing two person talking, seeing a group of people doing their usual spring stuff on the lawn, seeing an instructor teaching away, listening to my friends talking about their highlights of the day....all these I could observe, feel for them, however, because I am on the cloud I only could send them my smiles and words without able to reach out to them.

I could choose not to do so or put myself in such situation, I could be more expressive and easily words out my thoughts. But, it seem hard to do that. I ask myself? Am I threatening myself for being such a situation? Am I going to stop meeting new people?

When I think about this, on the other side, I have a strong sense that God is trying to do something. I feel that He wants me to be in silent and pray faithfully in my heart to things happening in my life. I do know that my life is starting to change and I am not sure how it is changing but God is at work for something. Every moment of waiting and each moment of patience, I find myself at awe seeing God's work around me. It seems that He has something great for me and despite of my wailing, (it's amazing how still I am about this) I have few words to ask him.

I remember the time I felt like this, was the time right after I finished my high school. I was in an intersection deciding which path should I choose to take. I taken the road which my parent wanted me to but God changed my direction. Thinking back, God is a loving person and He actually let me walked in a path which served Him and still let fulfilling my desires.

Right now, I wonder if I am being dumb to let myself feel like this again and totally waiting on Him in this time of intersection. I have a strong feeling that God wants me to learn about something else. Although I am worried sick about my future, I still keep up my faith in Him knowing that He has plans for me.

Father, Lord. I ask of you that you do not keep me in waiting too long but reveal to me of Your divine purposes. I am Your servant and I walk my life in You. Amen.